oh man this sucks, i really want to see richard before he leaves. no other boyfriend has ever ment this much to me and i cant see him. ok enough of me talking about that. ha ha, the other day at that x fest thing (it sucked balls) me and richard went into the guys bathroom and then when it was time to get out i ran and this cop/marshal dude saw me and i was like fucking shit. oh well, at least i didnt get caught wich was the good thing. but he finally saw my peircings. i love shereen and chelsea and cinder and carissa and so many other people, their funny. i was thinking a lot last night about everyone. they are such good people. i want to go and see carissa working. shereen told me about her incounter with her and how it hauntes her in her dreams, ha ha,not really but that would be pretty scarry and funny at th same time. well i'm gonna go my eyes burn.

dificult no to feel a little bit disapointed and passed over.....

see you naked but oblivious and you dont see me.

hmmmmmmmm..........tnod uoy tsuj tnaw ot eid? i've been stareing at the computer for about 10minutes. i think i'm gonna get back on zoloft i've already tried to kill myself again.

 thank you all for being my friends. you all made me laugh and i dont really laugh that much. sorry for being quiet for all those times that you needed someone or at least a few words to feel better. i dont know why i screw up so much. well i guess this is good bye.