urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw AdRiAnNa AdRiAnNa 2004-06-13T05:25:43Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:6836 2004-06-13T05:25:43Z 2004-06-13T05:25:43Z oops i didnt put an x at the end so its<br />badlydrawngurlx <br />ok. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:6647 2004-06-13T05:11:51Z 2004-06-13T05:11:51Z so i was thinking why dont i do something different today.<br />well i didnt anyways i was gonna change my user name to something else. so i'll be badlydrawngurl. bye bye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:6212 2004-06-11T07:15:00Z 2004-06-11T07:15:00Z i really hope that chelsea got home safe, i was worried. chelsea, if you got home safe please nod your head, chelsea? chelsea? where are you chelsea? oh there you are, hello did you get home safe?<br /><br />well it turned out to be a pretty good movie i thought that it was gonna be about sex and getting high and shit but it turned out to be funny. well i'm gonna go<br /><br />oh yeah and shereen and alex looked cute together they just needed to hold hands but they did at the end. thats so cute, hes shy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:5908 2004-06-09T20:20:14Z 2004-06-09T20:20:14Z <p>oh man this sucks, i really want to see richard before he leaves. no other boyfriend has ever ment this much to me and i cant see him. ok enough of me talking about that. ha ha, the other day at that x fest thing (it sucked balls) me and richard went into the guys bathroom and then when it was time to get out i ran and this cop/marshal dude saw me and&nbsp;i was like fucking shit. oh well, at least i didnt get caught wich was the good thing. but he finally saw my peircings. i love shereen and chelsea and cinder and carissa and so many other people, their funny. i was thinking a lot last night about everyone. they are such good people. i want to go and see carissa working. shereen told me about her incounter with her and how it hauntes her in her dreams, ha ha,not really but that would be pretty scarry and funny at th same time. well i'm gonna go my eyes burn.</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>dificult no to feel a little bit disapointed and passed over.....</p> <p>see you naked but oblivious and you dont see me.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:5676 2004-06-05T06:27:09Z 2004-06-05T06:27:09Z <p>hmmmmmmmm..........tnod uoy tsuj tnaw ot eid? i've been stareing at the computer for about 10minutes. i think i'm gonna get back on zoloft i've already tried to kill myself again.</p> <p>&nbsp;thank you all for being my friends. you all made me laugh and i dont really laugh that much. sorry for being quiet for all those times that you needed someone or at least a few words to feel better. i dont know why i screw up so much. well i guess this is good bye.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:5608 2004-06-04T07:57:20Z 2004-06-04T07:57:20Z <p>hmm SCHOOL'S OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!! finally oh man i couldent wait for it to be out. ha ha ha, i'm watching just married and its in the part where their in the air plain and their trying ot join the mile high club and his foot is stuck in the toilet. their retarded. yet so cute. i loved the cursive concert. i thought it was awsome. even though i'm used to much rougher crowds and a way harder band. it was pretty cool when tim asked me what i wanted to hear. i wanted them to play shallow means deep ends but he said that they dont know&nbsp;how to play that song, so that was pretty weird. he was so cute, he dosent know the meaning of&nbsp; being drunk. and when he was asking the crowd to marry&nbsp;him and got on one knee.&nbsp;i guess i'm pretty open minded, well supposedly. awww their makeing up now, i want richard. i miss him.&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;:(...... ha ha ha, we miss eachother so much that were gonna go to that x fest thing to see eachother. how pathetic is that? only if my pairents wernt so fucking strict i wouldent have this problem. man that totally sucks, why must everything be so hard to do in my fucking life!!???&nbsp; i really hate it that i have to hide everything from my pairents, i wish i had cool pairents like cinder, she gets along so well with her mom. shes so lucky, i wish i could have a good conversation possably a real conversaiton with her or&nbsp; at least get along, i would be somewhat happy. sigh.......but thats just a wish. well i'm gonna watch the movie and try to do something this summer, man i have NO life at all, i dont have talent.&nbsp;i dont have a future, i dont know what to do with my life. why cant i just go away.&nbsp;why am i still here? i was thinking the other day.......about eyes. i always notice everyones eyes, i never did that before untill that thing that happend last year. i really wish that that didnt happen. but you cant change the past only move foward and try to stay positve wich is really really hard to me. ok now i'm gonna go.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:5217 2004-05-31T21:38:11Z 2004-05-31T21:38:11Z man, why must my life suck?!!! i dont think i can go on living like this. it really sucks. well i'm gonna stop complaining and go do someting. i hope chelsea can go to cursive. is shereeny comming too? i know cinda is gonna go w/jordan, ha ha ha, well at least you get a free ticket, right? ha ha ha, your crazy cinda, i love you all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:4998 2004-05-31T08:27:29Z 2004-05-31T08:27:29Z mutha fukin slipknot!!!!!! <p>ok well this is pretty interisting, i'm watching autopses and this guy has this huge hole in his chest cuz they took out his lungs and then they cut open his head and folded his face foward and it made this sick sound. and then they took out his brain and cut in four pieces. it was pretty interisting. i still want to be a doctor.</p> <p>oh like i was saying, before i totally screwed up. i was going off on mine and carissas parients for screwing us over. its like how are we supposed to learn how to trust people and not be so pairinoid about&nbsp;our husbands or boyfriends going out on us?&nbsp;arnt we&nbsp;supposed to learn stuff from our parients? then why are they doing this when they know its wrong? and then they act like its nothing bad at all. marriges are supposed to last "till death do us part" its&nbsp;not supposed to end up in devorse or one killing another one cuz there cheating. man i'm so tired its 1:37a.m. on my clock i really need to get all my shit together and need to decide weather not to let her secret out or not. it really bothers me that she had to tell me what she was&nbsp;doing, she should have just kept it a secret or not even do it at all. i mean how does she expect me to react to&nbsp;this situation? how can i try to build our relatonship if i never really had one and then she tells me this. well i'm gonna go.</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>oh help me to think of a weird kinky name ok?&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:4760 2004-05-30T23:52:54Z 2004-05-30T23:52:54Z i just wrote the longest entry ever and i just erased it. man i rreallly am a screw up. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:4488 2004-05-30T04:36:41Z 2004-05-30T04:36:41Z some weird band, ewww ha ha ha, i just finished watching old school. how i love will ferrel, he's so fucking funny. richard is so stupid and i mean hes a fucking dumbass. ok i really talk about him too much. it even gets to me but hes always in my head. like one of those songs you cant get out of your head and really dont want to get it out,.......but its there. today was fun..... finally my dad just got home i was getting worried about him. well i'm gonna go now cuz i have nothing better to do. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:4103 2004-05-28T05:45:07Z 2004-05-28T05:45:07Z well i just finished reading my friend jesse's e-mail and he is kind of freaking me out. he said that he wants to get a prince albert, and he wants to bone me aferwards and he wants to see my peircing, wich i dont have a problem with cuz so many people have already seen it, except richard wich i think is pretty funny, ha ha ha. he wanted to see them so bad at lunch, horny mother fucker. i feel bad, i'm so abusive to him.ha ha ha ha ,i'm watching MXC man these japs are so fucking stupid. their's one that looked like james cook, that guy is so funny. my dad keeps on saying that i'm sick in the head, i'm so fucking tired of people thinking that. i acutally hear and see things, i'm not crazy, its really happening. i guess thats why i dont tell anyone when that stuff happens then it builds up inside and i freak out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:3942 2004-05-27T05:16:34Z 2004-05-27T05:16:34Z well as you all can tell, i got bored and totally screwed up chelseas creation. sorry. well i feel like the weight of the world is somewhat off of my sholders. i finally talked to richard and hes doing fine, at least thats what he says. poor richard, he got nothing for his birth day...... yet. muah ha ha ha . i drank this weird chineese mushroom happy tea and i'm so hyper. i'm gonna go now. sorry for ruining your creation chelsea. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:3748 2004-05-27T00:27:29Z 2004-05-27T00:27:29Z wow, jim is so fuckin hot! oh man, slipknot was an amazing concert. the new song isnt that great nor is the video but i wish i was one of those maggots, lucky bastards. i just want to open richards cd right now to listen to it. damn him. i dont even know what to do anymore about him. i understand what hes going through but.......damn. oh how i love my chelsea, she saved my life with that cd. ha ha ha, fucking rachel and shereen were argueing and i thought shereen was gonna sock rachel in her face. shereen could kick rachels ass definately. ha ha ha , i took this picture of cinder yesterday of her eating a brownie in the morning, anyways it was so cute, she looked like this little girl eating a brownie behind her mothers back cuz she was supposed to wait after dinner or something.well i just talked to my friend jesse from el paso and he wants to get a prince albert, and he wants to know if i'll bone him, ummmmmm..... no if i was so shit faced drunk maybe but i highly doubt it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:3402 2004-05-24T05:41:28Z 2004-05-24T05:41:28Z holy crap, i have rings in my nipples. hmmmm, they dont hurt me now. i love chelsea, i just feel like i boss her around and i dont want her to feel that way. i dont want to boss her around. i'm ashamed.:(...~~~~~~~ &lt;-(river)<br /><br />THANK YOU MY LOVELY CHELSEA!!<br />i really appreciate everything that you do for me.<br /><br />shereeny is so fuckin funny!! when we were in michals and you were showing me your thong and that guy saw you. ha ha ha ha.<br /><br />i wonder if we should have put something in the food that we made for spanish like laxitive or some choped up roaches or something. that would be so funny, everyone would be running to the bathroom. ha ha ha. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:3083 2004-05-21T02:32:55Z 2004-05-21T02:32:55Z well i'm talking to evan right now and he is such a liar! and i dont want to talk to him right now. ha ha ha he's singing jeremy from pearl jam. he sings really weird!! well i'm gonna do my stupid project now. i really dont want to do it. whyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!????????// urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:2953 2004-05-17T03:50:29Z 2004-05-17T03:50:29Z i really like that video that we made today. ha! shereen is so crazy, i loved her outfit! well i have all of this gay work for english i have to do. stupid poetry book!! stupid manager at jungle zone!! he can go screw himself! well at least we tried. but next sunday, yes.....sunday. well thanks chelsea for letting you use your house and for taking me to jungle zone and driving me everywhere! see you tomorrow. ha, that was crazy that we saw nick at the mall and shereen didnt want to go. well i feel like shit now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:2632 2004-05-08T19:11:34Z 2004-05-08T19:11:34Z man i'm so scared!! my mom is pissed at me and she might not let me go to the slipknot concert cuz i'm on "restriction". what the hell!! i'll try my best to suck up to her and maybe she'll let me go. i really hope my dad lets me go, he said i could but then my mom....... uhg!well last night sucked balls big time. except the movie, i saw van helsing. i think thats how you spell it. i'm listening to cursive, i missed this cd so much. man i barely read chelsea and shereens comments and there so nice, i love you all!!!!!!!! well i'm gonna go and try to convince my mom to let me go. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! wish me luck. i fuckng suck at this shit when shes mad. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:2305 2004-04-25T05:39:46Z 2004-04-25T05:39:46Z man i did something today i thought i would never do, i want to die. i feel so sick, my fucking nerves are going insane. i'm crying for no fucking reason. well i kind of know the reason but you guys have to wait and see till monday, then you can all freak out with me.<br /><br /> i'm so worried that richard would or did cheat on me while i wasnt here. but then i think, why worry, dont you trust him?, hes just a boy, but boys lie, they fucking lie!!! i really really need a shot of gin or something to relax or maybe get drunk. i was so fucking worried about some fucking guy that would go with some other chick? what the fuck is wrong with me? thats not the gurl i know. i really want to kill something. just take away somethings life. put them out of their misery. i wish someone could do me that favor. or i'll just do it my self.<br /><br />fuck it all<br />fuck this world<br />fuck everything that you stand for<br />dont belong<br />dont exist<br />dont give a shit<br />dont ever judge me<br />dont you EVER fucking judge me!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:2143 2004-04-17T06:28:19Z 2004-04-17T06:28:19Z Thank you chelsea!!! i love you so much. and you too shereen. i'm really gonna miss you guys! i did something really bad but i couldent help myself. i'm so depressed and still feel insecure. but theres nothing to change that. oh you guys im gona miss you!!=(...<br /><br />what are the seven wonders of the world?<br /><br />the hanging gardens, and thats all i know. if someone knows Please tell me, ive wonerd for many years actually.<br /><br />well thats all for now.<br /><br />see you in a week or so...<br /><br />... and if i die on the way or over there just know that i love you all with all my heart and will never forget you. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX!!!!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:1824 2004-04-15T03:42:20Z 2004-04-15T03:42:20Z This is Chelsea and I just did your journal adrianna. tell me if you dont' like it. It's very colorful :). Well Adrianna I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok byebye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:1635 2004-04-08T07:12:06Z 2004-04-08T07:12:06Z eh, why do i even try and bother with this shit. trying to make it look half way decent wont cure world hunger. screw it. i'll fix it tomorrow. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:1358 2004-04-04T07:52:28Z 2004-04-04T07:52:28Z eh, today i found out that my cousins feance is going to have a baby in june. i'm so scared about my situation, if you know what i mean. i still dont know. richard is such a sweet person. i'll show you girls later. i hope that dan hires you cinder, that would be so much fun working with you. my dear chelsea and shereen, dont worry about today, my mom was all oh why did they call you then tell you they cant come. i said oh her mom needed the car. so everythings groovy. i feel like such a hippie saying that. oh i want to go to ozzfest soooooooooooooooooo bad. theres gonna be slipknot, slayer, hate breed, ozzy of corse, and a whole lot of other kick ass bands. the closest their comming is to san deago. bummer! well i'm gonna go sleep.<br /><br /><br />why me!! this cant be happening! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:1206 2004-03-31T05:02:06Z 2004-03-31T05:02:06Z man, i dont know whats going on with me. its making me so frustrated! ever since i hit my head at that xtreme thing ive been getting really bad headaches. i tried to dy my hair with purple hilights and it turned like almost blond or something. i hope no one notices it. i'm so bumbed out for no particular reason. ha! on monday i had some FUN!!! well i dont thing i should have even come to school on monday, i was so depressed, i didnt care about anything, anyone(except for chealsea, shereen, cinder, carissa and richard)i could have cared less if i died a slow painful death. i just want it all to go away, all the pain, sadness. i wish i could just erase my past or just die. i really dont want to be here anymore. what the fuck is going on with me!!!!!!!!!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:865 2004-03-26T04:36:18Z 2004-03-26T04:36:18Z i just found out that one of my friends has testicular cancer. hell yeah its funny but sad at the same time. and he lost a ball already. well i'm so excited about sunday and saturday. if i'm gonna go to the xtreme thing i neeeeeeeeeedddddd to get my ticket tomorrow. well my eyes are burning. oh cinder, i have that song in my head from thrice stare at the sun, i love that song.oh yeah, thanks again for that korn tape! and thanks to chealsea for you-know-what. and my lovely shereen, take care of your self! all of my friends are BEAUTIFUL, well except rachel. he he he. j/k. or am i? du nu nu nu. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:adri_ptw:579 2004-03-20T06:31:45Z 2004-03-20T06:31:45Z man swindel! well as you can tell from the last entry i put i'm so fucking of school, what i meant was i'm so fucking tired of school. hey by the way you have a nice journal with your little pokea dots, i think thats how you spell it. man today was crazy! well shereen i'm sorry i left school early i was dead tired. i really wanted to go to spanish i have alot of fun there cuz you girls. thats great i'm not hurting any more!( for those of you whom know what happened) =) how the hell could you make a damn background on this thing? well chris finally left! i felt like punching him soooooo bad!!!!!! <br />i dont mind jesse or steve at all but this ass whole is all, "oh why do you guys keep on ditching me? i'm the leader here!" what the fuck! hell no! he was the fucking guest in my house and he didnt even say thanks for anything, not even letting him stay at my house in stead of paying $600 at a cheap hotel. he keeps on complaining about everything! well at least he's gone. i never want him inside of my house ever again. well i'm pretty pissed right now. so i'm gonna take some advise, and i know its true, that hes not worth it being mad over. oh guys, please dont put my last name or the school i go to or all of that other personal stuff like that, cuz as you all know that there are some sick demented people out there.yeah, i know i sound paranoid but its how i feel about this. thanks! well i'll see you later, i'm gonna try somethng out really quick. bye!